Gaaaaaaahhhhhhh~~
I'm so happy.
Not even.
Happy is such an understatement.
But thinking about going the whole week without seeing him is just...
GAAAAAHHHHHHHHH~~~~~
;________;
So I overslept last Monday and didn't get to school.
I was thinking, "Whatever, an extra day of rest will be good since falling asleep at a normal time has been impossible for me."
Let me tell you: Never, NEVER, stay home with nothing to do other than thinking.
I felt like I was gonna just lose it.
_{Then again, the fact that my music on the computer consists of mostly emo/angry stuff probably didn't help any. Have to fix that. XD}
So I mean, I am really, really, REALLY happy, but I just get the feeling that sitting around my house all week is going to drive me up a wall.
And I think, "Well, I can still talk to him online..."
But then my chest starts hurting and I know that's just not enough.
Jeez, I feel needy.
But I feel like I've finally found a significant part of life.
And WHY DOES MY MIND LIKE TO THINK DEPRESSING THOUGHTS?!
Like, "Did he make it home okay? What if there's stupid drivers out? What if something happens? What if disaster strikes? WHAT IF THE TERRORISTS FINALLY DECIDE TO BOMB US?"
XD A small look into my odd thought process.
And now my awesomesauce big sister just called me.
I love how we can have the most awkward conversations, but still be cool and just laugh about it.
And apparently her husband (another awesome person, they were totally made for each other) is planning on getting me condoms for Christmas.
She says she's going to prevent that awkwardness.
I think she's lying.
Because that would be the perfect awkward moment.
And she would have a camera too, gosh darn it. XD

Gah, I feel like there's something seriously wrong with me.
I'll be laughing and whatever, and then suddenly I remember this next week.
And I get all "QQ-y" again.

And then I start thinking and getting all reminiscent about stuff that's been happening lately.
(Except my head tends to hit stuff...XD)
And part of me wants to be all "Ha HA you bitchy sluts, I got the best guy anyone could ask for!"
But that's not like me.
There's no way I'd work up the nerve to say that to anyone but my computer screen. XD
But he's just soo...wonderful. .//////.
And then he says all these awesomely-way-too-perfect things, and I just stand/sit there like an idiot.
.______________.
SHHHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET.
I swear, if I mess this up, I will never forgive myself.
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<sub>"But the memory just won't do,
I need to find my way to you
I wanna touch you
I wanna kiss you
I wanna feel you in my arms
I need to hold you..."

...Ohhh, I love him so much...
...
<3</sub>